1.24.2024

Wow, today did i realize that I have spent 23 years of life here in US comparing my happiness to others' ?

I am going through a internal self reflection over what is working in my life (always focus on MY personal growth and needs !) and when ruminating as to why i need to speak up and talk up, realized why i am not talking to people. i have been for too long, been told i wasn't good enough, not smart enough, taking personally when people don't hear what i say, so internally i minimize my shame and guilt and decided what i am going to say isn't important for other people. I also realize these same people have always been negative to me, so i thought why I am still hanging with them? i should cut them out from my life and stop "begging". I need to move up and move out.